Oct. 26th, 2007 @ 09:02 pm
Man...my thoughts and feelings have gotten the best of me. I am so in love with em right now that I dont know what to do. I havent written on here in a min...I can't wait to go home, cant wait for pride, cant wait for new years...but iw anna be here i wanna be there i just wanna be everywhere...how come i can't just love the fact that someone loves me and is takin me for me regardless of my bullshit baggage...i just wanna scream...i love them and they love me....i can't continue...i just cant....
check ya lata
hey maria i missa uuuuu
OKkk....so everything has been great! I been a ll sick but I mean I dunno I am very happy with who I am in my life right now....I have graduated hiogh school and attended college for 1 full semester. This semester I am takin off but I have applied to some other colleges one in NC and two up north....I really don't wanna stay in NC but if I do why not go to a HBCU....and Im majoring in Chemistry....
Kendra and I weres suppose to go to cancun and the room and everything was paid for...but OMG I got a job lmao...and now I cant go because I wont be able to start work until two weeks from now...what am I to do...I spoke with Kendra today about it and she is tryin to see if she can change what thedates til before or after the week in july that she is in Aruba!!!! I wanna do somethin I am so tired of north carolina...anyway...I dont have aything deep to say but I do wanna know...Do you ever wish that you could just go away on a vacation and is just you...tha beach and a few books or soemthin....Don't talk to anyone for a week and just do ya thing? I wish that.
I beleive there is so much we all want to do in life, but we never have the time because alot of the time we are tryin to acomidate to other peoples feelings but lately, with some shit that is going on with my family and friends I cant...I have to think about my self and myself alone and if people cant except that I wanna do somethin for me for a change and make myself the number one priority in my life then they just dont deserve to be around me...
OMg I have so many thoughts in my head right now that I cant bring them all together but I do wanna asy...just be happy with who u are and don't settle for less then what you deserve....ok wait...lmao that wasnt for yall anywho...
I miss yalll
MO and TRIGGA and TRE Boy....and K...and Jena nd OMG so many people oh and jen....I found a bigger MC lover than U!! LMAO
Current Music: Mary J..OMG shes back!
Jan. 14th, 2006 @ 11:35 pm
I aint been here in a min....Everything is good...Im not in school this semester...Ive got a boo...I went to NY for New EYars and hung out with....Kendra( Dahotness from the board) and a few others....I miss yall AWW!!! ummm Who wants to see the pics...its just a bunch of Women...gettin too freaky on a dance floor...but yall may recognize a few....:-)
Aug. 23rd, 2005 @ 09:52 pm
I forgot I had this shit....
Its all good...I miss tre and Im mad at MoMo and TRIGGA!!! :-)
Jul. 16th, 2005 @ 04:50 pm
Im so addicted to Down...lol...anyway Carlenes gonna talk to Dominic for me...HEHE and Kendras gonna find me a boo....I dunno why everyone tryin to find that when i dont want one right now i just wanna be on my grind...lmao...a pimp you know....
Thats all I wanted to write, im still in love lol...
Kim said wit a middle schooler!!!
|» *sigh* Is she the one?|
I have a new found love in my life...|
Shes only 14 :-(
wtf...everyone findin someone they want and that wants them back...except me!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!|
I give up....im not lookin nooooooo more...if u seek u dont find DAMNIT!!
TRE!!!!!!! Where u at man...
*got to pee*
|» NYC trip...|
Wow is all I can say. Thats my one word to describe it. |
Get there and go to whack a$$ BBQ. Go to Fordham and almost get a ticket. Chill and smoke with Jamie.
Go to Dyckman with Katie(sexiest white girl) and Carla(my "freckled Puerto Rican", Shes Irish and PR. At Dyckman we go in the Chinese store. This dude walks out and comes back in and is like(to Katie) " Yo Shorty, what's ya name?" So Katie is like cursin him out. So we make up this big lie about how she's cuban, Carla was Dominican and I was Dominican. LMAO!! It was too fun. Anyway I went to Kendra's house afterwards, which was fun. We chilled and blah blah.
Tha "fun" begins. KENDRA gets arrested. :-( That's all I can say.
Chill with Kendra and Yolanda. Go down to the Pier in tha village.\
Get drunk and smoke. chill. Go to BBQ. Eat. Get freaky, dancing lol....
Spend 5 hours on a plane.
Im done. That sums it up...:-D
go to Pride and hang out with Kendra #2. Go out to eat wit her. Meet MoMo, Maria and Shaun(hottie). Meet Lauren. Hang out with others go back to Village and Times Square.
yay!! Iget to post!! LOL!!!|
Just wanted to say.....Im goin to new york.......HAHAHAHA Ill be there from the 21st to the 27th...I cant wait...
I think shes mad at me. But she said it first. I just said somethin mean back...:-(|
|» Prom shoes...|
I cant find my dress!!!!
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I got a LiLac Prom Dress!!! :-) and Chinese Laundry Shoes....YAY!!!!|
|» I work at Sears, now I regret it...|
Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake
You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many.
The minute you meet anyone, you can make them crave you almost immediately.
You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss.
A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.
|» Prom...wtf is it?|
Well I have decided to go to this thing called Prom...one night of the senior year when u dress up and have a good reason to. WEll Im wearing a navy blue and white pin stripped suit, wit this hat. I dunno about a cane, the girl im goin wit my wear one. The chick Im going wit isn't my girlfriend tho lol...its just my friend. I hope to have a nice tattoo by then! Quay Quay says i does needa have a purse, ewwy....Well Imma have this rhinestone necklace made like a tie, some nice hanging earrings and um...thats it...I HATE dressing up lol...|
Anyway...I have an interview at Sears, and I think thats it...lol...which me luck...
|» *sigh* Why do I feel this way?|
Dangerously In Love Lyrics|
I love you... I love you, I love you
Baby I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the sea
With you and God who's my sunlight I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world
I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me
I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side
Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love,
to hold, to feel, to breathe, to live you
Dangerously in love, yeah
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you.. oh yes..
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Gosh, Ive been lookin at all my friends journals...|
Everyone, even Quay and it dawned on me. You all are such good writers and can introduce ur journal so well and me, im just Hi this is what happened today BLAH BLAH BLAH, u know. So I decided it to start it off, like this, today so I can be DIFFERENT.
A few weeks ago, I was depressed. Then I stopped being depressed. I miss someone. Someone special. :-( This girl is someone I truly love and admire for so many things, but it won't work out. She and I could never go down. We tried it but HA!
I'm not good with relationships. I swear, someone can be interested in me and I don't want to be wit them. It can be so many things, for example;
1. We are too close as friends and I don't wanna ruin it, because they know all my secrets, so why would they want me?
2. Their persona is so weird. Just their eyes, nose, ears, mouth, teeth, shoes....
3. I'm so picky.
Why I gotta be so fuckin picky. I just think I know what I want, and can't settle for less then that. I keep telling myself, and people who know that i have an interest in females, that since....and....I'm going to stay away from them. I feel like US women are EVIL. I'm just going to get with a nice tall, dark handsome man. Thats the man I'll eventually marry. :-)Right Alli?
Now on to my next point, I can be interested in them and either;
1. They lose interest or
2. when I wanna be wit them someone else comes along.
Why? Why does this happen to me? It has never happened with guys, just with girls. *sigh* So what does that tell you? Maybe its me!
OK thats all I came to talk about cuz today is 4/20 Im bout to smoke..LOVE YOU!!!
Holla at cha...~1~
Bout to go play ball...:-) |
I wish I was a male...
Just sayin hi!!! We've GOTTA TALK!!!
|» Tina ya Fat Lard, Come get some dinner....|
Omg, that movie is hilarious. |
K so so many random thoughts:
To start off: Why is it that the one person who I truly want to be with, and vice versa, is actin like an asshole and sayin shit like: I dont know if we should say....or.... because I dont know how long this is goin to last or I don't wanna break my heart. If you truly feel me they way you say you do, then you dont have to think you'de know and you would say you don't know if you're gonna break my heart or not, feel me?
2nd: This working two jobs, sucks. I mean money is good at a minimum I get $225 and thats just 4 days every two weeks. I just feel like I'm always tired, and I make money I can't ever seem 2 save. Everything, except the trip to LA, has been put on hold. I'm not movin out to probably '06. :-\...hopefully before i just gotta find a new job. Then I can easily get a laptop, but a car? I'll share it with my mother.
3rd: I only got 45 more days till i graduate!!! YES!!
Beauty Shop was the bomb!!!!!!!|
I want these shoes...what two should i get?
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this is for u....|
SO ugly lol....