Gosh, Ive been lookin at all my friends journals...
Everyone, even Quay and it dawned on me. You all are such good writers and can introduce ur journal so well and me, im just Hi this is what happened today BLAH BLAH BLAH, u know. So I decided it to start it off, like this, today so I can be DIFFERENT.
A few weeks ago, I was depressed. Then I stopped being depressed. I miss someone. Someone special. :-( This girl is someone I truly love and admire for so many things, but it won't work out. She and I could never go down. We tried it but HA!
I'm not good with relationships. I swear, someone can be interested in me and I don't want to be wit them. It can be so many things, for example;
1. We are too close as friends and I don't wanna ruin it, because they know all my secrets, so why would they want me?
2. Their persona is so weird. Just their eyes, nose, ears, mouth, teeth, shoes....
3. I'm so picky.
Why I gotta be so fuckin picky. I just think I know what I want, and can't settle for less then that. I keep telling myself, and people who know that i have an interest in females, that since....and....I'm going to stay away from them. I feel like US women are EVIL. I'm just going to get with a nice tall, dark handsome man. Thats the man I'll eventually marry. :-)Right Alli?
Now on to my next point, I can be interested in them and either;
1. They lose interest or
2. when I wanna be wit them someone else comes along.
Why? Why does this happen to me? It has never happened with guys, just with girls. *sigh* So what does that tell you? Maybe its me!
OK thats all I came to talk about cuz today is 4/20 Im bout to smoke..LOVE YOU!!!
Holla at cha...~1~